Submitted my last final! Year 3 done and dusted.
I’m also conscious that I’ve been keeping track in my head of my progress from year to year but haven’t been keeping any kind of written record of milestones, and I want to make sure I don’t take for granted how far I’ve come. So:
May 2018 – Accepted to Rabbinical Schools: I had been taking Hebrew classes at Brandeis and studying Talmud, but I couldn’t have told you what reference text to pull off the shelf to look up unknown words. I could lead Friday night services but not weekday services. Looking forward to the summer JTS intensive and a year in Israel at the Conservative Yeshiva in Israel!
May 2019 – End of Shana Aleph: I knew which reference text to pull off the shelf, but had to look up almost every word. Way more comfortable with Talmud, especially after Rabbi Jim Michaels put me through my paces. Cautiously comfortable with Rashi script and able to slog through biblical Hebrew, thanks to the amazing Bex Stern Rosenblatt. Could easily roll a Torah scroll to the right place. Led weekday afternoon services every chance I got, but still scared of morning and evening services. Tentatively beginning to articulate how fiction writing and chaplaincy might inform each other. Looking forward to CPE at Hebrew Senior Life and my first year on campus at Hebrew College!
May 2020 – End of Shana Bet: Beginning of quarantine and zoom learning. Learned the difference between helping and accompanying in CPE, as well as how to be in relationship with God while being honest about my anger towards God. Co-led High Holiday services with my dad! Only looking up 2/3-1/2 the words in most texts. Managed to pass Aramaic and tentatively able to break down the logical flow of a passage of Talmud. Better able to write a sermon, bringing in sources besides the main biblical text. Have realized that I don’t know how to write a lesson plan or source sheet for anything other than creative writing, but looking forward to teaching at Temple Israel.
May 2021 – End of Shana Gimmel: A whole year of zoom learning! Have finally gotten a systematic understanding of Torah cantillation and how to teach it to others. Can not only lead the Pesukei and Hallel parts of morning prayers, but can do so on zero advance notice when needed. Regularly leading Kabbalat Shabbat. Led a Seder solo! Able to be in relationship with God without being angry. Making lesson plans and source sheets for Jewish learning for people of all ages has become second nature. Can look at a (more straightforward) rabbinic commentary and translate it for myself because I don’t like the liberties taken by another translator. Only looking up 1/4 of the words in most texts, and able to understand and appreciate wordplay in Talmudic texts. Have led a class on reading and writing midrash! Doing prewriting for a midrashic novel. Looking forward to a second unit of CPE at MGH, teaching at TI again, and a rabbinic internship at B’nai Tikvah in Canton!